I'm not sure if this is appropriate to post because it's not directly related to the pacemaker itself, but I'm just terrified and so afraid.
As everyone knows, my cardiac journey has been an up and down road. Recently, physical therapy and medication adjustments have helped keep the SVTs and general visual disturbances mostly at bay, to the point of experiencing them less and less, but still weekly.
Now the topic of my post is in regards to being alone. My wife decided to surprise me this past weekend with the notion of divorce and it's absolutely destroyed me -- came out of left field and doesn't seem like she cares to want to fix it. My heart has been racing nonstop since Sunday evening. It's beating through my chest and I'm just terrified to take my blood pressure. I feel like I've got a shot of adrenaline in me (haven't slept in days, barely can stomach food, crying quite a bit, etc)
She's been my rock for the past few years with my heart complications -- she's always taken an active approach with me to my doctors appts and now I'm just trying to comprehend living in an empty house, going to my appts alone and just not having my favorite person by my side through this journey (and our lives in general).
i thought I've been making good progress with my medical stuff and I don't want to fall backwards, but im just so worried now. That this new stress and depression is just taking a beating to my heart.
I'm not quite sure why I posted this. I'm just so confused and upset and angry and sad and just hope that someone has words of advice. Has anyone else with a PM gone through a divorce or a bad split?
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I am very happy with mine. I am in the best shape of my life. I lift weights, compete, bike, golf and swim.