What is wrong with me????
Am loosing my mind? That is the question of the day. My sort term memory is gone! I can't remember if I mailed something, lost it, or completed it? This is making me feel just like before the pacemaker. I feel panicked and dreadfully full of that awful feeling of doom. I think I want to cry because I still know I should "know" things. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I am due for a new pacer soon but I was fine 2 days ago, but now I don't know!
If I call the doc he will think I am being "emotional" I'm sure. Lord help me. I feel awful. I'm upset and yet my HR is still at 60 BPM. I feel very paranoid.
Pacergirl
8 Comments
Par for the course?
by Blueaustralia - 2009-11-04 03:11:22
I know when I am stressed. I lose my keys and my glasses constantly. I forget what I came into a room to get and have to retrace my steps to remind me what I should be remembering. True. I spoke to my doc and he told me I was not losing my mind it was stress. I am doing it a lot lately as I am worried about my husband's serious back/neck surgery next week. So be comforted. You are facing a lot too. Take care. Life changes and medical problems affect us more than we realize.
Sincere regards from Oz Billie
Same Feelings
by AngelaHolt - 2009-11-04 04:11:59
I have felt the same way for two months! Stressed, forgetful, depressed, finally I checked my pulse and it was running inn the mid to low 60's and is set not to go below 70. I called my doctor and they got me in the next day for a pacemaker check. I was in VVI mode and had been for two months. I am having mine replaced Friday. Listen to your gut, do not let them blame this on emotions, it is YOUR heart, and YOUR life, YOU need answers. Just have them check. I think it was Smitty who said they were quite grumpy when there pacer was going down. Check it out.
Good luck to you! I pray you find the answers you need!
Thanks,
Angela
susie
by jessie - 2009-11-04 09:11:44
by all means get checked physically but if i was still working i can tell you with all that happens daily i would feel on overload. just to deal with everyday family life and then the other things like adult children's problems . we often are on overload. you are a positive person but you are human. so if you are checked out and you are good then don't worry about all this forgetting. it is so common in menopause and after that it is just funny.i feel that i am better now but can slip back into a forget day. without my little notes. lol love you jess
losing it
by Tracey_E - 2009-11-04 12:11:14
Ya know, having your full mind is really overrated. Those of us who've lost it (all Pacerchicks fall into this category, you know you're one, lol) have a lot more fun!
Seriously, if your hr isn't going up, it sounds like you went into EOL mode. Go get checked! A lower hr will definitely affect your mind, your brain needs more oxygen. Try a little test, run up the steps and see if you can get your hr up. If you can't, you won't be calling the dr with emotions, but facts.
{{{hugs}}}
LOST MY MIND
by pete - 2009-11-04 12:11:30
I lost mine ages ago and it does have its advantages as its left me with nothing to worry about. When you reach the bottom and can go no further it gives you a comfortable feeling that things cant get any worse and yet you are surviving.Cheers Peter
What is wrong with me????
by Shirley - 2009-11-05 05:11:33
My thought is that you should call your Dr. I have read many postings on here from you and they are always positive. So if you are feeling down or that something is amiss, then...call your Dr. As someone else mentioned, that is what they are paid for. They need our calls.
Just his morning, my 88 year old mother called me, long distance, to say that her Dr. wants to perform some kind of (genological) procedure on her & she does not want to go through with it as it is not causing her pain, fever, etc. ..just a little discomfort. She is meeting with him next tues. & feels, well what if I refuse, he will be annoyed with me & probably won't give me any more appts. I told her, if it not life threatening & simply a fix or mend procedure to make her feel a little more comfortable & she does NOT want to go through with it at her age....then that is her decision/right to make that choice. Forget about what the Dr. might be feeling. His job is to see to your health but abide by your wishes..and concerns.
So again I say, if you are bothered by something or think there is something amiss, the right thing to do is phone your Dr. and voice your concerns. If it is nothing, then great. If it is something, he will be able to fix it or guide you in the right direction.
You are the one who is important here!
shirley
hi pacergirl
by Hot Heart - 2009-11-05 08:11:35
you have been through a heck of a time recently and this will have caused a lot of stress, this could be the cause of some of this.
However, perhaps you should go mention this to your general gp, not particularly your cardiologist, they can do a memory test with you to see whats going on.
A goodway of checking your short term memory is by doing that old game, put lots of things on a tray, then cover it up and try in about half an hours time to write a list of what is there.
Start writing things down for a while, give your brain a bit of a rest and see how you feel in a week or two.
HHx
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by tcrabtree85 - 2009-11-04 03:11:03
It may just be anixety but I think differently. If your body has something going on we react to it. So because this was not happening and is new of course your going to be nervous. Rest up and call that dr.
I am praying for you!
Love ya,
Tammy