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hi everyone i am 2 months in with my new pm for pausing heart never new i had it till i went to er an was told i had double pnemonia i have to admitt my doc was great but you really need someone with you at your fist check up to listen for you cause i was so overwelmed with all what has happened i just dont focus on listening although there is a lot of things docs dont really tell you to expect for instead ive had these little panic attacks i feel pulling sometimes inthe area sometimes a stinging feeling on scare little bit of pain in left arm get nervous about situations really fast just being axnious my husband tries to tell me to relax but it just comes on i am on the lowest dose of zanax there is an only take them wen i need them im 48 anfeel like im falling apart some days although somedays are great i feel better before i had this pm but i no god sent me to that er for some reason to save my life ani am greatful its does take some getting use to oh and it cracks me up when my doc tells me after surgery i can go home next day an to take tylenol for pain well youve got to be kiddin me you need more then tylenol for this procidure i was hurting i needed my husband to help me up form the bed the first 2 days or so an my i could get a bath my daughter had to help thank god i ask for a script to go home with so to all who are new to this pm thing write down questions that you like to ask cause they will not really tell you all the things you will be feelling after surgery its1/09/2010 an im feeling alot better got my pm on 10/28/09 some people on here say oh youll feel yourself in no time well i think it takes time to heal an i thank god for my husband an children for taking care of me cause i am a very self sufficent person i i could not go through that alone

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I was where you are

by wenditt - 2010-01-09 01:01:04

Oh Patsy....
I was where you are and have moments when I am there again. I am 33 and have had my PM since 9/11/09. My implant too was out of the blue, fast and I couldn't stop crying long enough to listen to any Dr. never-mind comprehend what in the hell they were telling me! Everyone here told me "it will get better..." and I PROMISE you they are right...and it does.

Everyone needs to find their own path to recovery. Be it physically and mentally. Up until about 10 days ago I might as well have changed my screen name from Wenditt to CRAZY LADY! I was cursed with panic attacks and fear to the point I would visit the ER about every other week. My husband too would tell me to relax....and I would flip out of him because obviously I wanted to relax but I just could't figure out how! I could have thrown him through a wall every time he said that! So I went on Xanax as well. I am still on it, 0.25 as needed. Some days I "need it" once, others I "need it" 4 times. I also began to see a psychologist so she could teach me strategies and what do to when the panic sets in. I don't want to take the Xanax for one more minute longer than I need to.....but realize that I am not prepared yet to come off it. And every Dr. I speak to says with that little dosing "if you need to take it, take it."

Your body will heal. Your shoulder may remain stiff and range of motion may be limited for a while but once they give you the OK...stretch it as much as you can. Getting back to normal will make you feel better.

In the mean time, try to stay as busy as possible. Clean, organize, cook...do whatever you can distract you from the fear and panic.

Know that the PM is a smart device and WILL WORK. Now that you must hardly need it considering you had pauses and didn't even know it. That is in your favor. Know that everyone takes their own path to heal. If you are unsure, call the Dr. If you feel too scared and aren't sure what the feelings are from...there is always the ER. I personally find that when "the white coat" tells me I'm fine...suddenly I am!

One of the members here recommended a book to me. I bought it, read it one day and felt 100% different and had a different outlook. It's title is Self-Help for your Nerves written by Dr. Claire Weekes. You can find it on Ebay. I did notice reading about anxiety made me a little more anxious but it was worth it in the end.

If you have an iPhone, there are lots of applications for breathing you can download when you feel an attack coming on. It's the most difficult fight to win with panic attacks because you are fighting with yourself. Mine (knock on wood ) have been under control for about 2 weeks now.....clearly I am no expert but I am moving in the right direction.

I am praying you find some peace. I know go get a massage weekly! It costs me a fortune but I need it so that's how I justify it! LOL

Wishing you the best of luck. YOU CAN DO THIS!!! If I can.....you can.

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by breezy - 2010-01-09 01:01:30

Hi :) I had my PM installed on 10/20/09... so I am 2 months with this little guy too..:) I have little quirky things go on alot...and I too get anxious and hubby is always telling me to calm down.. so my advice to you is just do that..calm down.. becuz when you get anxious it just makes things worse..I have a home monitor which I can use to transmit to my Dr.. we live 185 miles away from my Dr..so the remote sending is great:) I used it for the first time last week..and showed my PM doing what it is suppose to be doing. If you have any questions call your Dr and talk with him.
I have learned to take one day at a time...I too had help from my husband and daughter..my arm is still not quite right...it all takes time...I read on here that lots of folks at 2 months were not feeling to chipper...but as the days go by... everything will work out..you might have to have your PM "tweaked" ...I have had my done one time so far.. and from what I read here.. it might be that I will have to have it adjusted again. Everyone is different.... lots of folks on here to ask questions of and they are such good ppl and very very helpful...:) so take good care :)
breezy

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by patsy - 2010-01-09 07:01:11

thank god im not alone thanks breezy an wenditt for getting back if it wasnt for this site i dont no what id do i mean we have our familys an stuff but they have no clue on what we are really going through only ppl who have theses little buggers implanted in us iam greatful though cause i still we like to see my grandaughter an grandson grow up i like to see my daughter an son be married some day thanks again girls god bless an be well have more good days than bad

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