having a frustrating out of breath day

• by Angelie
• 2008-10-13 02:10:19
• Coping
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Hey ya'll,
I sure can't breathe today. It's very frustrating. Every time I complain to my cardiologist there's nothing he can really do, so I just quit complaining and deal with it. Doesn't make it any easier though. I'm wondering if I need to go back down on my beta-blocker. It's been a few weeks since my increase, and I wonder if it's now starting to get the best of me. I just really feel like crap. I think I'm gonna call him anyways. I have a history of phrenic nerve damage back in April, and pacer for brady/tach implanted in August.
I've been training for a 5k. I don't know how my training will go today. On bad days, my EP doc's words ring true, "Just listen to your body and it will tell you how hard to go."
Today, I'm like the little engine that could. Just wish it would all go away. I thought I was past all of this crap now that the pacer was implanted. Guess I'll continue to have my good days and bad. But also my EP doc's words encourage me as he described me as "one that doesn't seem to get easily discouraged." It's nice that someone thinks of me that way, and it gives me something to hold onto when I do feel bad. When I remember that people think of me as a positive person, it sure makes it hard to stay negative.
See, I already feel a little better. Just needed to vent, I guess, and reassure myself that I'm gonna be just fine. I love this place.