Special Thanks to all !!
Well I just spent 20 min .writing a great letter to all that have reached out to me but as iI went to spam filter it it was lost so . Those thought will now be the readers digest condensed version. I have gone through so much since 2001 when we wentfrom a doc to help us have another baby to them finding a brain tumor. Maybe we are coming full circle as I went to the ER for my sever headaches and palpatations due to the pharmacy giving me the wrong meds. But then I was told I was pregnant. I posted while I was in a fog and I apoligise to any of you who I may be bothering as my posting was not heart related. Unless you include what this has done to my heart. LOL . If I have upset or bothered anyone as I know you are posting for a PM or heart problem and the last thing you want to deal with is a hormonal woman spilling out all to ,, well I can't say strangers anymore, because you are not. You are my friends. I do have a PM and my past health problems made the words the doc at the ER said "Well,.... your pregnant" unbelievable. I just want to sat thank you again because all of you have got me through this week. I now realise that a friend has nothing to do with how many lunch dates or shopping trips one may take together. You have all been so kind. I have a referral for a specialist with high risk pregnancies as my docs do not agree with how I should handle this. I find it may have come full circle though as when we went in the first time I was leaving there with little hope for a future and no hope for a bay. Now as I left the ER I was shocked as to my "illness" but am going to try hard to look at the big picture.I also wanted to add a little note to the crazy soap opera story. I was getting the pelvic sonogram done. The doc asked me to go to the restroom. I was crying in there very scared that I may not be ok and I was asking GOd please don't give me such a gift and take it away. I reached over for tissue to wiope my tears and I noticed the words all over my hospital gown. Apparntly the maker of the gown but I no less felt it was some kind of sign and I am trying very hard not to stress. The words everywhere on my gown were "Angelica" SO I just wanted to share that. I was calmed instantly but as a human I have my moments. Well if I have this child ,Gods will or mine, lol, I believe boy or girl its name shall be Angel.I have never thought of that name as one we would pick but I beleive it was given to us. Some story huh. In my fog I forgot to share it before.
So again a thank feels so little to so much that has` been given to me from all but it is all I have right now. My words are filled with love as yours have been to me.
Very ,deeply, and truly,