A Note of Thanks

to all of you that have helped me through these last few weeks. I unfortunately was not able to carry the baby and I miscarried "her" on 6/1. I guess God knew better than I as to what my body could handle but I am very disappointed and quite angry at the same time. I still am trying to come to grips with such a God that would give me such a precious gift only to take it away so abruptly. Anyway I am just trying to deal and let you all know that I appreciate all the support and prayers I have received from this site. It really was very caring of all that took the time to extend a note and kind words to me. For that i will be forever gratefull. My heart is broken but with all your support I am getting through it a day at a time. I have had so many miracles so I should not be greedy in that catagory but I am sad. I will encourage you all to look today to all those miracles in your lives and hold a little longer, love a little harder and breather a deeper breath today when you walk out into this world. We are all blessed in different ways and those blessings are what we must dwell on.
Take some time to "live" not just "be alive" . as not everyone gets a second chance as we have with our PM/ICD.
Most truly humbled by your "strange" friendship,
Susan


13 Comments

so sorry to hear

by CathrynB - 2007-06-04 02:06:18

Oh Susan,
I'm so sorry to hear the news of the loss of your baby! I've never lost a child but can only imagine it is the most painful of losses. Please know how sorry I am, how much you are in my thoughts, and how I wish for you the peace and acceptance that passage of time can bring. There are many on this site who will you have you in our thoughts and prayers in the coming days, weeks and months as you recover from this. Keep us posted on how you're doing. Take care, Cathryn

Heartaches...

by auntiesamm - 2007-06-04 02:06:31

Hi Susan - My heartaches for you and the loss of your baby. Believe me, I understand what you are going through. I had a miscarriage 39 years ago at about 16 weeks gestation. To this day I wonder what that child might have been. Over time it did get better. Lean on the Lord to get you through this - I know He will because He never fails us. I will keep praying and asking Him to ease the pain or your loss and give you peace. I ask Him to comfort your family, too, as they experience the loss of what might have been. God bless you all.
Sharon

So Sorry.

by Stepford_Wife - 2007-06-04 02:06:57

Dear Susan.

Tenderly,
May time heal your sorrow.
Gently,
May friends ease your pain.
Softly,
May peace replace heartache.

And may warmest memories remain.

I borrowed this from a card I received, when my father died.
I hope it helps you, the way it helped me. I thought the words were expressed so beautifully.
Bless you, my thoughts are with you in your time of need.

~ Dominique~

Broken

by hooimom - 2007-06-04 03:06:09

Susan,

I too had miscarriages with my first two pregnancies. My heart was broken and it took time to heal. You are so wise to look on the blessing that you have. That will help you get over the anger you feel right now. I am sorry that you are angry at God, we can't always understand his plan. I have been at that place with Him more than once! It has been my experience though, that sometimes going through the broken heart, we grow and become stronger than we ever thought or dreamed we could be. I'll be praying that you come through on this pain stronger than ever before.

Michelle

So sorry

by Rewiredaussiegirl - 2007-06-04 09:06:04

Hi Susan,
My thoughts are with you as you go through this sad stage of your life.I had a stillbirth and also 2 miscarriages years ago.It takes time to work through your grief and you will always have a special place in your heart for your little baby in heaven.
Although at the time it is hard to recover from your sadness you will later realise that sometimes these things happen for a reason.
Take care Susan and we are always here for you if you want cheering up
Kay

So Sorry

by Lou - 2007-06-04 11:06:10

For as long as your heart is feeling the sadness of loss, Susan, may it also feel the warmth and caring that surround you. My Best. Lou

A short note

by carismendez - 2007-06-04 11:06:57

I'm new and don't know you, but I'm thinking/Sending you some hugs right now. I hope you have people around you to show you some love as well. It's okay to take as much time as you need to "deal" with your feelings and emotions right now. You don't have to hurry up and get better. And of course let us know if you ever need to vent anything else.

so sorry

by TOGUY - 2007-06-05 01:06:11

Dear Susan,
All of your friends here on this site are feeling your pain. Each of us wants to reach out and comfort you, your family and friends will be there to help with your grief. Your belief in God will get you through, we can't understand how these losses are sent to us but please know we all care and hope that time will heal your heart.
Gary

A note of welcome; doesnt quite flow does it? :)

by valerie - 2007-06-05 01:06:39

My dear Susan,
You have included all of us in this journey, so we feel that you and your family are a great part of our lives. It is difficult at times to see God’s plan for the future, but we have to remember that there are much more details to come in our lives, and so we have to keep that in mind. But of course, it will be difficult, but that’s what we are all here for; to support each other.
And just by reading your post, I can tell that you are already putting your life in God’s hands, and that is such a great inspiration to many others.
So as you say, we must dwell on those blessings we have and take that to “heart” [pun intended, hehe].
Again, there are numerous people that are praying for you and your family. Don’t worry, prayer is an amazing tool in our lives.
May God bless you and your family.
Take care,
~valerie

My prayer

by Suze - 2007-06-05 04:06:46

Dear Susan,

I am so very sorry....

My prayer for you is that you give yourself time to go through all the emotions a loss of this nature brings.

I miscarried over twenty years ago and was given this advice from a friend who had been in the same situation: "Allow yourself time to feel grief, anger and profound sadness for the loss of a child you have been looking forward to. Don't try to be so strong that you just tell yourself not to feel sad because it was probably meant to be. The raw sense of profound sadness will lessen in time, but you have to give yourself permission to grieve. Feeling anger toward God is sometimes part of that process.....

May you find peace......

God Bless,
Suze

susan

by jessie - 2007-06-06 08:06:06

may god comfort you during your time of loss of this precious child. that is all i can say. you are in my thoughts and prayers love,jessie

Your in my thoughts

by admin - 2007-06-07 08:06:49

I can only imagine the sorrow in your heart. I have never lost a child, but have too young sons that mean the world to me.

May God be with you during this difficult time,
Blake

Again

by queen_beez - 2007-06-08 03:06:56

I just want to graciously say a warm thanks to all of you that have extended so many beautiful caring words of encouragemnet. I came on this site to find answers to PM questions. I found so much more. I have a large family and so many people around me that I can turn to .Funny thing is on here I have been able to NOt be the strong one holding it all together. Thank you for that. As I read each post I cried and when I was finished I sat and thought how blessed I am to have such "friends" in my life. It is funny too because I am by fr your typical computer geek. Before my husband found me this site I could barely check my own email. I thought it was crazy how people could meet on the internet and fall in love or become friends. I now understand. With no preconceived ideas about what to expect from each individual I "talk" one can wonder how could one find anyconnection through these "lines" at all. It is almost how a perfect world would be. Not being judged on ones looks ,race, or anything else. Through mere worlds you have all changed me as a human being and together you have lifted me up and I can take a step. I may not take two but thank you for holding me up as I try to move forward. Amazing ,that is what you wonderful people are.
Sincerely,
Susan

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