Time for a Update!

• by tcrabtree85
• 2008-03-14 01:03:19
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Hi my friends!
I am still in Chicago for a couple more days before returning home. I have enjoyed my trip besides the hospital stay from hell.
My heart is still a little out of sync though on the 19th I will figure out what is going on exactly.My doctors gave me help and advice over the phone to prevent myself from not landing myself back in the hospital here.
I have had some problems lately and I believe some of you have heard me talk about this before. As the weeks have been getting closer to my one year of my big heart surgery I was having flashbacks of the procedure and right before my rate dropped all the way down (the entire procedure goes through my mind.) Well today one year ago was my procedure. Last night I couldn't sleep at all because my mind goes right back to the day of that procedure. Sounds pretty stupid ablations are so common for me and the first one was not a big deal but this one seems to bring every thing into reality.
So my question is does anybody else get a little down when it comes to the days you had surgery? I know I should be looking at the blessings but it still at times is hard to look at those blessings. I am blessed don't get me wrong but staying positive all the time is a huge challenge.
Sorry for this being so long. Much love to you all and thanks for always providing me with your wisdom.

Tammy