Is pm a private matter?
I'm a new member to the site from Finland. I'm 33 years, male, and I have AV block 3, and it was diagnosed about 6 years ago. A PM was recommended from the beginning but I have been reluctant to have one. I haven't had any major problems with my health, although now I maybe understand better why I never was the best in any sports in school.
After the diagnose, I have been regularly tested to find out if there are any changes to HR. (Holter, ultrasound etc.) Now we are having our first child in March and I finally agree to have the PM just to eliminate the sudden death risk. I have asked that the procedure will be done after the birth, so I wouldn't have too much stress at the same time.
I have many fears and anxiety about the whole PM thing. Especially the mental side of it. I have never thought myself as a person with heart problem. With a PM I think the condition will be reminded daily by the apparatus in my chest. And other fear is the social side of it. I don't want to tell about the condition to anyone outside family. I don't need the pity or the curiosity of co-workers and others. I don't know what to think, my head feels like bee's nest, all thoughts buzzing and jumping around.
How have you managed the situation and have you had similar fears?