I've handled my heart travails well over the years through a positive attitude and humor, and haven't given much thought to the fact the smart money is on my heart eventually killing me, assuming my wife doesn't do the job first. One thing I haven't been able to come to terms with is after doctors continuously telling me I'm on borrowed time, why are all those around me seemingly in good health dying while I continue to plug along. Just a week ago my primary care doctor told me I'm a mess. He even slipped and informed me my recent echo has my ef at 10% - 15%. The guilt when those around me go is overwhelming and often difficult to cope with. I'm ready, I'm okay with my planned death, I know nobody survives life. But this Hardly seems fair.
And so it goes