All is well
20 years ago I was told that I had something called in AV block. About 5 weeks ago I was told that actually, this thing that I've had all this time isn't really understood, and the fact I had missing beats in the ventricle meant that it's not just my vagus nerve being overly active at rest. At the time, after having been told to "wait and see" and to come back if I started to faint on and off for decades, I was somewhat taken aback by the news that now was the time to do something about it, not in 10 more years.
I'm now 3.5 weeks post op and just had my first pacemaker check. The leads are fine, my thresholds are good, I have another estimated 12.5 years of battery left. My scar is healing, in the words of my EP, wonderfully. The only concern raised that was quickly put to rest was a question of what I did yesterday afternoon. The pacemaker had detected afib and triggered automatic mode switch but in fact that was from me going for a run for the first time in many weeks and pushing 182 BPM.
I've been hyper focused on my heart rate for months now while going through investigation, via fitness trackers and feeling my pulse compulsively, in the days leading up to my pacemaker op to the point of it becoming obsessive and paralysing. I feel like I can now finally let go of this. It's no longer my job to check every heart beat, I have a device to do this for me, and it's working exactly as it should.
You know you're wired when...
Your old device becomes a paper weight for your desk.
This is my second Christmas with my pacemaker and I am so happy to be with my family.