Feeling pretty good lately!
For the first time since this whole journey began, and definitely since I was shocked on Dec. 4th, I have been feeling pretty darn good. The PTSD from the shock was pretty interesting to navigate for awhile, every little thing set me off and I spiraled down the rabbit hole with new symptoms daily. But I think I've worked through most of those issues and once again am feeling encouraged and positive.
Anxiety is underestimated, cruel, and not at all descrimitive. It can mimic most of the bodily symptoms our minds can create. While most of us just put up with the daily reminder that we aren't 100%, it's another thing entirely to succumb to it. I have learned over the last few years that anxiety can literally cause me to believe I'm sick, it can give me chest pains and brain fog... and a long list of other uncomfortable symptoms. It can make me feel like I've lost control over everything, sinking deep into despair. BUT... usually it's wrong. Usually it is nothing but a severe case of anxiety driving the symptoms. Heart problems are difficult at best, we don't need our nervous system attacking us. And by nervous system...I mean NERVES.
Learning how to determine whether our symptoms are real or produced by our own anxiety is KEY. Once I learned to manage those thoughts and emotions that started the symptom avalanche, I became my own saviour of sorts. Anxiety is a train, coming at us from seemingly no where. But like any train, it makes noises. Audible noises we can hear if we are paying attention. We can derail that train if we know how, therefore avoiding hours or even days of miserable symptoms. Get to know your triggers well. Avoid them if you can. If not, learn some soothing methods to convince your brain that you're really okay. Whatever works for you, DO THAT.
Personally I love stuffed animals... yes, I know I'm 58 years old, but adulting is optional when you're trying to prolong your life. The softer the critter, the better. Some days (at home) I just sit and hold a stuffed animal, snuggle the soft fur, and look at it's face to calm me. I've got some pretty cool ones too! I also collect a wide variety of crystals and palm stones. Smooth pretty ones I can look at and hold in my hand. I take some to my doctor's appointments and hold one to keep from getting nervous. Believe it or not, it works. And whatever works, DO THAT. If you think you feel good, then you feel good.
Meditating or just sitting quietly and going through positive thoughts in your head is helpful too... breath deeply and remind yourself that you're okay. Sometimes I say it out loud until I feel like I am less stressed.
If you know something is going to stress you out, avoid it. The people in your life who really matter will understand you not going to a dinner party, or being at a crowded concert. (those things stress me, but maybe not you) The point is, stress and anxiety have the ability to cause heart flutters, arythmia, skipped beats, PVC's... any way you spell it, avoiding stress if you can is the best thing for your condition.
That's just my advice for the day. Hopefully it will help someone.
You know you're wired when...
You take technology to heart.
I am just now 40 but have had these blackouts all my life. I am thrilled with the pacer and would do it all over again.