Acceptance

I AM NEW TO THIS BOARD AND I AM GLAD I HAVE FOUND IT. WANTED TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO ME....
MY DAUGHTER MICHELLE PASSED AWAY 3 YEARS AGO IN A SURFING ACCIDENT. SHE AND MY SON ARE MY LIFE. WHEN I LOST MICHELLE I WAS DEVESTATED TO THE CORE. MY HEART BROKE IN TWO AND NEVER RECOVERED. THE RECOVERY WAS HINDERED BY MY EMOTIONS OF ANGER. I HAD AN ANGRY HEART. YESTERDAY MORNING I GOT AN E MAIL FROM A FRIEND OF MINE. HER DAUGHTER PASSED AWAY SUDDENLY AT AGE 19 WHILE ON HER TREADMILL. HER HEARTBEAT WENT TO TO LOW..AND SHE WAS GONE. DOCTORS ARE PUTTING A DEFIB PACEMAKER IN HER YOUNGER SISTER. YESTERDAY I WENT TO MY CARDIOLOGIST AND HE FOUND THAT MY HEARTBEAT HAD LOWERED TO THE TWENTIES..BUT THE PACEMAKER DID ITS THING AND I AM HERE..THANK G+D. SARA WAS NOT AS LUCKY.
SO I HAVE DECIDED THAT WITH ALL OF THE HASSLE THAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING WITH THE PACEMAKER..I AM OK WITH IT. IT IS SAVING US..GIVING US ANOTHER DAY TO LIVE OUR LIVES. I MYSELF HAVE MADE A CONSIOUS DECISION THAT I WILL NOT LIVE MY LIFE UNHAPPY..I WILL NOT LIVE IN A STRESSFUL RELATIONSHIP..I WILL NOT LIVE MY LIFE IN ANGER..I WILL BE KIND TO MY HEART AND MAYBE IT WILL BE KIND TO ME BACK...
THANKS!
Dee

4 Comments

Thank you

by #1grandma - 2010-09-28 09:09:51


Thank you Dee. I'm sorry for your great loss but your post as to how you are going to live your life was so special and I want to do the same. We only get one go around and I want to make the most of it.

love is the cure for anger

by ray - 2010-09-29 01:09:48

Hi Dee...I have had my PM for just over 3 months...BP dropped to 19 BPM...pacing 100%....I suffered depression since I was a young lad....now 62...my near death experience and the PM have given me a new perspective of life......and best of all it has cured my depression and the anger has all gone.....the anger you build up does you more damage and ..you know ...the other party that you are angry at.. doesn't get affected......anger builds anger ...it is like a growth....it can only be cured by love, compassion and forgiveness.... by making that decision you have taken the first step in self cure....you are on the right path, just look into a mirror and forgive, yourself first and then who ever you are angry at.

Stay safe.

Dee

by LS - 2010-09-29 09:09:29

What a beautiful post. I'm sure it will resonate with many.
I'm sorry for the loss of your daughter.
It sounds like you have a wonderful outlook.
Many blessings to you,
Liz

God bless you

by Hot Heart - 2010-10-01 04:10:50

Hi Dee

My dad died suddenly at the age of 35, left my mum with 3 children under 4. This is all a very long time ago. I was diagnosed at 55 with 3rd degree heart block, who knows, that could have been what my dad died from.

My friend lost her baby to heart problems and her brother to a drug overdose.

Who knows why these things happen, but they do, and we have to embrace every new day, be thankful that we are here, and it's our duty to those who have gone before us that we live our lives to the full. Some of us are lucky and can go where we want, do what we want and have friends and family who love us, others are not so privilidged.

You sound like a wonderful person, I wish you joy in your life.

HH

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